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Jumping In

 

I tend to be a last minute and sporadic person from time to time. It is interesting because in my college days, I was nothing like this. My friends had to give me advance warning before I would go somewhere overnight, enter a event, etc. A lot of this came from fear, fear of not being prepared, not making the right choice, forgetting something I needed, etc.

As I have aged, I tend to make several of my big and little decisions on the fly. I told my husband I would marry him on our first date (scary).  I decided on the house I wanted to buy the first time I saw it. I started my own business when my boss gave me an ultimatum. I went from my Honda to an Audi without bating an eyelash. I went back to school for a PhD one day after a short conversation with my husband about my career. Now, all these decisions worked out just fine and I am glad I made them. Sometimes they don’t. I am not saying to throw caution to the wind and do whatever comes to mind. I believe that what we think about all day becomes our reality.  Suddenly one day the decision is there and, BOOM, we make it. How did this happen and not become a total disaster? It was our mindset prior to the decision.

I like to run and have for years. I tend to enjoy distance running, above a 10k distance. However, this has led to some injuries resulting in a discouraging loss of cardiovascular strength. As I have increased fitness, I have been putting on some miles. They have been slow and tedious, and I have stayed as far from racing, especially short distances, for as long as possible. However, I started making a mental shift this week. I have been taking the pressure off of running.  I started to embrace again my love of the sport, the friendships, and that high of an overall feeling of exhaustion.  Last night I texted a friend and told her we should get up at 4 am and run a 5k. That is not a bad distance. Anyone can do it. I had no expectations, and I was well aware I would not do my personal best. I hated the 5k, and they hurt.  However, I was going to change my attitude. Instead of thinking about it and dreading it, I made a decision last minute. The race turned out great! I never once felt I was running too hard or felt any pain. In fact, I felt I could have run faster, but I was not there for that. I was there to tell myself I could. I ended up getting third woman overall!

Sometimes I think we just have to jump in and make a decision. All the wondering and worrying is a waste as our life passes us by. We miss every opportunity we don’t take. As long as we watch our thoughts, focus on what we want, respect those around us, stay responsible and learn from our experiences, risk taking is sometimes one of the biggest spices of life!